Yesturday was a day of many emotions...  The reality of everything set in even more, however it was also a day of healing.  I spent the day putting our home back in order.  I did not realize how much pain I was holding inside.  It was very ovious to me when I took a look at how disorganized my life has been for the past fuew months.  As I was dusting my book case filled with pictures of you I had some laughs and some tears.  I thank you for so many wonderfull memories and all your guideance in my life.  I am thankfull that you let me know time and time again that you thought I was a wonderfull mother.  Jordyn talks about you everyday she will always remember you. 

Love You

lil sister 

This weekend was family picture weekend, but the family was not all able to attend.  Danny and Blaine could not be with us as I smilled for the camera I really felt like crying.  It was a very sad thing knowing that this was all so real.  I felt empty without you Dan.  I did my best not to show it for it was a step towards healing.  When it came time to BBQ up the steaks Ryan and I took on the responsibility (no one else wanted to out of fear lol)

if you where there you would have done it so I did it for you...  You may have given us a hand they came out great. After all you where becoming the King of the "Q"  I remember when you used to call me for BBQ tips sorry I laughed at you, but that pocker sure came in handy LOL  

I love you & I miss you