I would like to let everyone know that things are coming together for the fundraiser.  We have had a great deal of support from the community and have decided to hold a silent auction.  Everyone is welcome to attened September 22, 2007.  It will be a time to celebrate Dans life and have fun together  to raise funds for a local chairity.  This evening is for people over the age of 18 only due to the fact that it is being held at a local pub wich is only allowed to host people of legal age.  The after work "O" has been a great supporter covering the cost of the entertainment and providing us with the facilities to hold the fundraiser.  I truly feel I have been blessed to have so many great people in my life who have gone the extra mile to help put this together in memory of Dan.  Also for those who I have never had the pleasure of meeting that are helping out in many ways  I am so thankfull that this fundraiser will help others be  more comfortable when they most need it.

Thank YOU

XX

Cindy

I have spent alot of time searching my soul trying to make the passing of Danny seam even belivable to me.  I have slowly began to grieve in real ways and to let myself grieve.  I want to use my pain to fuel something that can make a differance to another persons life.  I have set goals to raise funds for chairity.  Please look at photo album titled In Loving Memory Of Daniel Vanclieaf (August 10th)

Thank You For Your Time

Cindy Vanclieaf Lebel 

I have been trying to bring many things in my life to a different level.  It has become very important to me to heal and grow as a pearson.  I have carried so much around with me that I have began to go into overload.  If I die tomorrow I want to know that I have made things right for myself.  No regrets or things left unfinished or unsaid.  If I have done something to hurt another for that I am truly sorry.  I am a big hearted lady who truly only wants to share good things with others.  It is the things in life that happen and we often end up hurting or getting hurt.  I in my heart have let go of any negativity and do apolagize for putting any of that onto another.  It is easier to put aside the things in our life that are not as we would have liked them then to deal with the reality of life.  I have looked within myself and discovered that at times I have been a pearson I would not even like to call "ME".  It is the part of me I am not proud of, but no one is perfect!  Today I will be the best person I can and hopefully I carry that into the next days. I am very thankfull that the people in my life have been there I am a lucky lady!  It is hard to understand why so many great individuals are taken from this world, but that is part of the circle.  One day that will be me and I can only do the best I can to be half as good as they.  If anyoe takes one thing from my rambaling on I would like it to be

     

Yesturday was a day of many emotions...  The reality of everything set in even more, however it was also a day of healing.  I spent the day putting our home back in order.  I did not realize how much pain I was holding inside.  It was very ovious to me when I took a look at how disorganized my life has been for the past fuew months.  As I was dusting my book case filled with pictures of you I had some laughs and some tears.  I thank you for so many wonderfull memories and all your guideance in my life.  I am thankfull that you let me know time and time again that you thought I was a wonderfull mother.  Jordyn talks about you everyday she will always remember you. 

Love You

lil sister 

This weekend was family picture weekend, but the family was not all able to attend.  Danny and Blaine could not be with us as I smilled for the camera I really felt like crying.  It was a very sad thing knowing that this was all so real.  I felt empty without you Dan.  I did my best not to show it for it was a step towards healing.  When it came time to BBQ up the steaks Ryan and I took on the responsibility (no one else wanted to out of fear lol)

if you where there you would have done it so I did it for you...  You may have given us a hand they came out great. After all you where becoming the King of the "Q"  I remember when you used to call me for BBQ tips sorry I laughed at you, but that pocker sure came in handy LOL  

I love you & I miss you

 

Today Jordyn wanted to look at pictures of uncle Dan so we watched the slide show and danced.  It was nice that she asked to see it.  It is something that we can watch together for many years to come.

It has been a hard month so far with easter and all the family birthdays (6) I put Dans name on the card to mom for him just like we did for many many years.  I started working on my scrapbooking again it has been very hard emotionally, but healing at the same time.  I am working on a book for cousin Stacey and am trying to do some pages that will be special to her, yet at the same time they bring alot back to me.  It is so wonderfull to have pictures to help keep memories alive.  I hope that one day the pain everyone is feeling will become a little less I cant see that day any time soon, but all I can do is send my love to all and be hear for anyone who needs to talk send an email or give me a call

Love Cindy

Today isn't any easier then yesturday!  I miss you so much it hurts I think to myself maybe it is all a dream.  I come to reality and realise it is more like a living nightmare.  The only comfort I have is knowing that one day we will be together again. 

Love You

Cindy

 

I have not had a moment that you have not been in my thoughts.  I am missing you like crazy.  To be an only child is not something I had thought about.  It seams so unreal!!  I feel that our parents got totally ripped off the perfect son they can no longer share their life with.  I still am unable to picture a world without "Dan" you in it.  One thing I do know forsure is every day as I always have I will ask myself what would Dan do in this sittuation, then I will know just what to do.  You are in my thoughts today and every tomorrow.

Love You "Dan the Man"

lil sister

I thank you for this space it is truly the perfect example of how we as a family loved each other completly.  I told you in my letter that I would keep your memory alive and this is one way I can do that.  To all of dans online friends thank you for sharing your life with him he got great enjoyment from the chats you would have.  

Cindy